We were practicing our "dance presentation" for quite some time now and in order for the rest of us to memorize the steps, our choreographer recorded a video of us "dancing". Two things that I observed while I am watching the video - First, I am not a dance diva. I can follow the steps but I certainly lack the sort of "gracefulness" that one needs in ordered to be called one. And second, I look like a giant marshmallow or a jiggling jell-o! Ahhh! Why do I have to watch that darn video? It kind of make me feel "so conscious" of how I look like when I'm dancing (which is not that bad but not that good either! Sigh!) and it made me "so very conscious" of how I look. I mean, I know that I was kind of chubby! Oh well! Great! After watching the video I now considered myself F-A-T or as we normally joked - a dinosaur or an elephant! I remember my older brother telling me that I looked like a giant exclamation point but I ignored him because he normally teases me. I know I'm being harsh to myself, but it's exactly what I think of "me" after I looked on that dance video.
Reality bites but it made me think that I need to start doing something now! As in NOW! I need to have a strict diet and have lots of workouts that can make me trim any excess kilograms. I know it's kind of hard since "diet" makes me think that I am depriving myself the food that I can afford to eat and workouts bore me to death! I know it's hard (maybe harder for me than anybody else) but I've got to try at least! Less food intake and exhaustion may mean a lower level of sanity for my part but with practice I think I can get used to that! It will be worth the try! A different me... physically!
I need to think positive! Think positive! Think positive! (I am thinking that now!) And always look on the bright side of things. I need to lose weight because it might make me vulnerable to having any heart-related ailments, hypertension and all sorts of illness that can lead to extinction. And in order to do that I need to focus! Focus! Focus! Focus! I think I need to have this embedded to my brain from now on:
Less food intake. Eat moderately. Watch what you eat.Drink water - gallons of it.As much as I hate it, I need to perspire! Work-out!Think of those girly dresses that you can wear when you go "there" and the sexy shoes! (@_@)No pain, no gain!I can do it! Aja!